Thursday, November 10, 2011

torturing myself

a few small bumps in the road (cliche, substitute later)
and I am completely and utterly neurotic.

a family member gets sick,
and suddenly I think I'm fat. What's the deal with that?

a few delayed responses in a text-message conversation
and I'm not desirable--I'm average, girls like me a dime a dozen.

DEEP DOWN I know this is not true.
It's just a phase I need to get through,
a brief stint of depression (I hope it will be brief)
until I can appreciate my life again, myself again.

How do I get over the hump (cliche, substitute later)
and on with my life?

Not knowing the answer is what makes me panic.
I have to get out of my own head.

1 comment:

  1. anxiety can be a plague, i know first hand how it can morph a small worry into a snowball of terror. you did a great job addressing this. and ps you are so far from average. don't ever forget that

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